[ He is quiet for a long time, and will reach out to her again, far more gently, and just pull her to be held against his chest. ]

It made me feel alive, yes. It was beyond duty or hope. .... And it was the strangest thing. I felt fear. It wasn't like a foe or a battle, I feel nothing but a desire for victory in such circumstances. I just do not want to be disloyal to my duty, and I wonder if by reaching out to you....

But it did make me feel alive. It was a pleasant experience.